Five Thoughts At 12:12 a.m.
1. I can't sleep. I went to bed but I just can't fall asleep so instead I am up watching The Bridges of Madison County. I hated this movie when I first watched it over 15 years ago because I could not get into any love story that had Meryl Streep and Clint Eastwood. *funny side note - my sister got my brother in law to take her to see this movie at the theater when it first came out by telling him it was a Clint Eastwood movie. He expected Dirty Harry and instead got a movie about a romance between two middle aged people* I didn't want to imagine anyone that old (ahem) being passionate but now that I am older, I find it more interesting. Francesca is married to a good man who adores her, has two children, a good life but yet she falls in love with another man. Over a course of 4 days a friendship evolves to a love that will last the rest of their lives even if they never see each other again. Can you carry love for that long for a person you will never see or touch again? Can you continue to face your loving spouse every single day, live your life with them while having love for another? Loving both. They continue saying that they have love you search your whole life for but she is married to a man she also loves with children she adores. So she stays with her husband. Can you make an entire life disappear to start a new one? Is it the selfish thing to stay? Or to go? I have no clue. All I know is that the consequences they must suffer are far bigger than any hurt they could cause. I think. Who knows. Watching Clint Eastwood's character standing in the rain staring at Francesca, wanting her to leave with him broke my heart. The nod and half smile telling her he understand her decision to stay was just so sad to me.
2. I wanted to have an orange today but my hands would not let me peel it. It is an incredibly hateful thing when your body betrays you. I would have cried from frustration if I thought it would help. Instead I had chips and salsa. Mmm.
3. Who knew there were so many two letter words that are acceptable to use in Words with Friends? Also, playing any game with Troy is impossible because he is a really bad winner, second only to how much or a rotten loser I am.
4. I need friends. I miss having girlfriends I can call and run around doing things with. I would love nothing more than to have someone to go get mani/pedis with, margaritas, go shopping with, gossip and just have fun with. My sister tells me that she wants to move to WA state and omg do I hope that happens. Fingers crossed. That last sentence was not an RA joke either. Ha. I am so funny at nearly 1am.
5. I've decided that yes you can love someone you never see or touch. Love is love regardless of space, time and I guess for some, even consequences.
love, Romy
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